I never expected to say this, but thank god for all those decades of therapy, 12-step recovery meetings, yoga studies, and personal growth classes! If it weren’t for those, I’d be a huge mess right now. Instead I have been able to approach the current situation from a place of faith and curiosity.
It’s been one thing after another for the last few years so I’m pretty well-tempered in the resilience and adaptation department. And I’m an introvert so having minimal interaction with groups isn’t too much of an issue.
But I definitely have to be compassionate with myself and others right now. I have to take time to respect my feelings as well as those of others without getting spun out by them. I have to check in and see what’s PTSD from past unhealed trauma and clear that out so that I can sit with and respond to reality. And I have to give myself permission to be imperfect and to muddle through this imperfectly.
I was reminded today that staying centered isn’t a stationary concept. Just as our bodies sway back and forth to find balance (stand with your feet under you, close your eyes and see what happens), I am going to sway off my center but with the right tools and mindset I can return to it. It’s the return that’s important.
I am curious to know how the end of this particular world is bringing me back to center. And even more curious as to whether or not it may realign all of us as a culture.
So as I sat in acceptance over losing half my income at the end of the month from a job that it took me forever to get I thought…”well, that sucks. I wonder what more interesting and more fulfilling thing will appear to take its place?” If I can stay in faith I think it could be pretty cool.
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Much love to you and your families!
PS: I did get to start on a new script a few days ago…yay!